No more denying. No more hiding. I am skint. I am like knocked over and under and there's no sense of thinking back why. Troubles drain me of energy lately and I can't just lie down and cry. I'm not gonna draw you into every hella drama I had, anyhow. Enough of them and I wanted to go out my way to skip them, I thought. But financially struggling on top of everything, gritting my teeth was all I could do. And so a week ago, I suddenly thought why not sell a bit of my great but unused ukay finds and non-ukay peices online to make some money on the side. Yay! It's business. Thing was, I didn't really know how the way to go about setting up my own 'dot com' so i decided making another blog. I have published it already but there's nothing like 'shopping' carts and 'shipping' links yet. I am still working on it, anyway. I got to post few pieces though. I swear there will come more in time and setting up the domain will fall right into place. For the meantime, I ask all my friends to check it out and maybe they know another friends they could tell to. Every friend knows another friend and that's how it's gonna work out, I hope. Later on, i might not only be a solo-preneur because I am thinking of asking my closest friends to join with me here. But for now, I'm like make-it-yourself-happen and I just have to believe I can do better in business. *smiley-face Now, setting in motion my www.jumblesalelimited.blogspot.com!
I am having such a rough and tough time of my life right now.
Worst thing of all, I am working, but I have nothing.
My family has always been living a simple and ordinary life. But I have always in my mind, am going to take the complications of comfort anytime.
Here I am - taking the complications of the simplest i believe comfort-and-such i am being and having:
a) single and free and on my own
b) working abroad
c) holding credit cards
Yes, I call it comfort-and-such being single and free and on-my-own.
Because I feel like I have the whole world for myself and I can smile smugly when my married friends and relatives and whomsoever argue with their hubbies over something stupid and end up hardly finding either ways of staying or separating.
The complication is, I see myself happy but desperate now. I am in an open relationship when all I want is commitment. I am happy because I love him; not sure if he does really love me, anyway. I take the risk and I don't know where is this taking me in the end.
Yes, I call it comfort-and-such working abroad too.
Because not only is a great way to see the world but also is a way of soaring off and breaking-free. Above all, I earn far higher salary compared to working in my country. Little did I know, 4 years can pass incredibly quickly and I see there is really nothing I can brag about when I come back home.
And oh, Yes, isn't it comfort-and-such to happy-go-shop even without money? The more credit cards, the happier I USED TO be. Now, believe me, the complications overload is killing me. I want to be debt-freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
I may sound so hasty but no, am not. I only want certainties in life. But i also know, I can only wish. There are moments in your life when you seem to get what you want and you want to keep it forever.
Success, however, takes work and more prayers. Even so I talk and dream big, I need to lie everything low and just stroll down.
Not the Queen herself (lol) but the legendary cruise ship named after her.
Wikipedia says it is the last of the great transatlantic ocean liners built for over four decades before the construction of the Queen Mary 2, which is now owned by Nakheel (a division of Dubai World).
wild wadi wild rides, a krazy-LIMBO dance, and a dinner party. wHEwww!
A wild wadi wild friday! [with the roomates]
The wild up-and-down-hill ring rides kept us thrilled, chilled and super excited plus the fantastic view of Burj Al Arab and Jumeirah Beach Hotel. Oh sweet blast! Thanks to Belen. She's the master blaster we gotta ride! *wink:,)
A krazy LIMBO dance friday! [with the officemates]
We never knew it was a LIMBO-themed party until the disco train ended to a krazy-LIMBO showdown.It was hosted just-for-fun and thanks to Mr. Earnshaw, we had a real fun 'wine & dance' time. For the record, it was the first krazy dance Fichtner party friday, by the way. *LOL
*can't wait to upload a video here*
A Don Corleone and Bacardi friday! [with the hanggaws]
Photo credit: metropolitandubai.habtoorhotels.com
It was a welcome-back dinner to welcome the newest hanggaw to the Hanggaw's family. Now, we must call him 'hanggaw marshey', I suppose. What do you, hanggaws, think?!?Hahaha.
four glasses of 'two oceans' + 4 bottles of 'bacardi' = Oceanic bacardi inside my tummy
the demanding bride's rule #1: Hanggaws must be at the wedding; Pam to be the MOH and myself to be one of the BMs *Needless to say the booking, cancelling, re-booking, confirming, re-confirming, issuance and re-issuance* 22nd April--- We headed out figuring it like for the bouquet? the love storytelling? the heavenly beach? the pictures? the surely out of the UAE's savory foods? the get-together of long-missed friends and umm...whatever. But certainly, of course, to pronounce and sugarcoat 'that's what friends are for'! The rule of the trip: MATULOG sa plane! and yes, we did. 23rd April--- We landed safely in the sublime city of Lapu-lapu, Cebu. Here I met the sweetest angels of pamyoks. What an oh-so adorable threesome---Bea, Chloe, and Baby X plus the lovely family. I want to exaggerate the whole family's cozy-warmth and graciousness here that I seemed to have had an instant dear family for 3N/4D i heavenly love. 24th April--- the highlight---the wedding, finally! To look our best, we went to do our hair and nail polishings early in the morning. And yes, of course, we looked great and lovely. Yayyyy! here are the pictures so giving us justice *wink
And, by the way, I did meet my long-missed college friends, Raezel and Pam (aka tiyan---one of the BMs too).
What an enchanting beach wedding, I'd say. I wish I could have camcorded our barefoot dancing performance. It was a perfect rock'n roll by the beach!
*censoring the sentiments of 'back into love love love'. You know who you are when you get to read this,anyway:,) Ahaiiiz, they make a lovely couple, y'know!
When and which is why the trip was the finest!
1. A bbq lunch at Matias' with the lovely capas---certainly the no.1 in the where-to-eat list that's not to be missed. Yummm!
2. the ever favorite Oishi Manju + green mango shake from thirsty. Ohh sweet Cebu!
3. The Back Up Plan movie daiskii and I watched for a good laugh. Fun fun!
4. the meeting up with joyceee + the burger steak in jollibee. Who-hoooo!
The panic-buying of PASALUBONGS (most for myself though). I gotta have my favorite bingka from Mandaue (All thanks to Robert for doing a lot of favors for me), mangoes, lanzones, seringuelas, dice, tikoy, piyaya, masa real, ngo-hiong, danggit, and the hair chuchu's from watsons for moi. The KFC's gravy that's so out-of-the-world was a dream-come-true for pamyoks this day. Hahaha.
And damn quickly, the return flight!
Nausea and headache was like killing me when we reached the airport up until we boarded the plane. For the record, it was the first time in my whole life that I puked (to no dose of hardcore consumed). Yuckky!
Pamyoks, diverted from extreme emo, turned out to give her sympathy for me and kept her dramas on hold. Thank you loads, hanggaw!
Today, I am back in the office safe and very well. And I thank you, God!
I was alone in the house and bored like hell y'day. All I was thinking about the day was the word 'party' when out of my fb-ing popped a message from used-to-be-a-roommate, Mariel, inviting me to a Nina's concert. Tired of being the couch potato that I always am, I tagged myself along.
The evening was almost perfect. A night-out with acoustic love songs live was indeed a blast except that Nina's appearance anchored us till 12 midnight. Yes. We, sure, waited for 4 long hours before she came out. It was the first time in a LONG time I managed to stay out until 2:30 past midnight.
According to my internal guidance system, it's a No Go.
After putting all the pros and cons of my current and offered job, I feel like I'm better off staying oooorr wait for a really good offer to step up and enough to get me out from a hella credit card trouble, at least.
And here's my email that said it all,
Hi and good morning [the offering boss],
First of all, I am so delighted by your job offer. Many thanks.
While I find the work, the way you and [the referring friend] explained, to be self-progressing and meeting my interest and exposure, I have uncertainly decided talking to [the current boss] on the matter up until the moment as I don’t know just the right decision to make considering, mainly, the following:
1. Commitment – [the current company] has always been very good to me, especially [the current boss]. I so value how they kept me after all visa headaches I gave them when I first joined here. For the same reason, I felt compelled to rather wait until the project is finished and/or signaled for a termination than tender a resignation.
2. Salary Offer = To be frank and honest, I see a little difference with the figure too. It would be a complete shift of the base and I note Abudhabi’s accommodation rate is of no equivalence, most possibly higher, compared to Dubai nowadays. To that end, I see [the amount] as my level of indifference.
The job, responsibilitywise, plus the opportunity of working with you guys are very appealing to me. However, after much thought of the above, I am sorry to feel like today’s maybe an inappropriate time to leave and have decided not to accept the offer at this time.
Your confidence in me is sincerely appreciated and it was a pleasure being recommended and having had a discussion with you. Anyways, I hope you will still keep my CV on file and will possibly consider me in the future should there be a need at a favorable time.
Again, many thanks for welcoming me and I am hoping only the best for you and the entire [the offering company].
Best Regards, Neli
---------------------------------------- Hi Neli,
Thanks for your long and frank email.
I fully understand your position.
Rest assured, I will keep your CV on file for future opportunities. Please let me know as soon as your circumstances change. I'm sure we can find an opening for you in the future.
Thanks and Best Regards, [the offering boss]